Current Mood (Stare into the abyss)

That didn't last long. I can't avoid my despair, I can't avoid the music, I can't avoid the videos of cats seeing their old dead owners. I'm just an emotional mess, I don't deal well with being away from my family. I need to confront my depression and harness it, make it serve me. It represents what I don't want.

I have to though, for now, so we can build what's to come. I can't appear depressed, my wife and kids need me to be strong, they need me to smile, they need to know a better future is coming and that I can see it. They need that hope, something only I can give them.

I'm still trying to convince myself, but I'm not lost yet. I'm building a road map to show my wife so that she sees what I want to see, what we want to see I should say.

To Do:
Immediate
- Put in for POD shirt samples as we are able
- Thoroughly investigate drop shipping providers
- Establish an effective ad stream across multiple platforms as feasible (fb, insta, tumblr, twitter)
- Finish a story outline ASAP
     --> Begin work on a story immediately afterwards, quality is less important, just start
- Finish commission work, finish 3rd cat, begin work on new assets
- Look at structure for building Shopify website, GOAL: 2 sites by the end of November
     --> Sift through and determine the best drop shipping web sites for different products
- Begin determining which stocks are prime for investment over short, mid and long term

Post Job Acquisition
- Continue writing as able
- Continue asset completion as able
- Pay off credit cards / phones / ipads (CC+)
     --> while building the Emergency Fund (~$5k)
     ---> in the midst of this, gauge the job and determine if moving is in order
- Emergency Fund Completed
     --> this should happen before the above has been paid off
     ---> by this point, moving or not should be apparent and the money from the EF will be redirected
            to the Moving Fund ($5k?)
          --> Begin exploring options for housing and school for the children
          ---> Begin building a Moving Plan (cost of breaking agreement, which items willbe disposed
                 of and which will be brought, time frame, etc)
- Moving Fund Completed
     --> This can be completed before CC+
     ---> Begin enacting Moving Plan
     ----> Moving Fund income diverted to CC+
- CC+ Completed
     --> All CC+ income to be diverted to Investment Fund

5 Year Goal
- $250k smartly invested in the stock market to support both present and future goals (this does not
  necesarilly include reinvesting dividends)
- Begin actively seeking property in the Lake Tahoe area of Nevada
- Have at least 1 book published
- Consider opening another POD store involving more nature based themes

10 Year Goal
- Open a dog sled tour business on the Nevada side of Lake Tahoe.
     --> Active Support: multiple POD online stores, active stock investment of at least $500k, book
           sales

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That's doable, right?